Mr.FcuK Snapshots & Lessons of My Life

17 days more to go and I will be on board a flight to USA. Yeah, I can’t wait, it’s really coming. However, as disappointing that it can be, the Swine flu is really impacting my parents, especially with 2 cases now in Malaysia. It’s so close, but yet so far, really far. Everything is uncertain and my relatives are keep on asking me whether I still want to go or not.

Well I guess if it’s fated, it’s fated. There’s nothing much that we could do now does it. Unless we can alter the space time continuum, then things can be different.

Either way, I will be working at Yellowstone National Park, Wyoming. Job - Hospitality Crew, basically kitchen job. Hoping to get promoted to server assistance as fast as possible so that I can have more money later on. $7.25 per hour for the crew is quite good, with cheap housing provided and food, it will be nice. I really want to hear one thing in Yellowstone, “Seven on the Line !!”

Till then, hope that everything will go well……

Yup, that’s right, Malaysian Ultimate Open (MUO) is coming again, with 16 teams coming from Southeast Asia, it’s going to be a blast. It’s 6 teams more than last year, and guess what, it will be held at Alice Smith International School, which I heard has superb grass. Layout session will be awesome.

Theme: Kampung Style - Expect some traditional kampung dressing
Date: 23 - 24 May 2009
Time: 8.30 onwards
Location: Alice Smith International School Serdang
Format: Gender Ration 4:3
Registration: RM 160 for normal players, RM 100 for Malaysian students (Registration for teams is now closed and if you want to register as a player you can, please email Kuan at ultysmurf(at)gmail(dot)com).

I had a fun time last year, and this year it will be great as well. Playing for Chuckies, a Singapore Satu Lagi like team, there will not be a strong pressure, but at the same time, at least I need to give my best for a team that is accepting me.

However, the bad news is I hurt my back (well it’s link to the hip actually) just yesterday during pickup. Now I’m quite devasted to see whether I can recover in time for MUO and if I can’t, I need to head down to Penang fast to see my secret weapon doctor, with 2 more exam papers to go.

Still thinking, have one more paper tomorrow. The mind block thoughts again. Signing off with Air Supply and Financial Reporting….

Ever since somene posted a Jon Schmidt video of the song Love Story meets Viva La Vida on Facebook, suddenly everyone started listenint to his song. Even though the mp3 is not out yet, people have been able to download the video from YouTube or converting the song into mp3. Thanks to a special someone, I get to listen the song on mp3 instead of streaming on YouTube.

I managed to download all his album and most of his songs are really great even though I didn’t listen to all yet, but his songs are relaxing and some are energising. After so long, I managed to find the kind of instrumental song that I need thanks to whoever who have posted his YouTube video on Facebook. Luckily I even have the urge to click on it.

Even Sean my housemate also started listening to the song. It’s not gay. It’s just the disease is spreading, like how the Awesome disease which came from Alvin that made everyone started saying the word Awesome.

For those who have not heard or listen to the Love Story meets Viva La Vida song, you can load it below. Enjoy, trust me, it’s nice….

I have to strongly apologise that this is so so late. Nontheless it’s still a good memory of times when Nico and Audrey were here, but they are coming back pretty soon. What elements have been missing out from this semester? Stone and Blur (or some may say Bimbo), yup those are some fun elements on the Mamak table, in class and on the field.

We had a going away party for Nico and Audrey before they left at Ren Yi’s. Date was at January 21st, few days before the Chinese New Year. Audrey couldn’t make it with us cause she had some personal matters. In the party, Burger flipper - Ren Yi, BBQ griller - Gan and person aimed to make d***ken - Nico. I got to say, the burger was quite awesome, with nice patty, carmelise onions, egg and cheese and many agreed. Simple, but tasty. 28 and a good cook, it won’t be a problem for him when he’s out there. Still many fishes friend.

Ren Yi’s Burger. You can reach him for his recipe at 012-34RENYI

Event of the day - To _ _ _ _ _ and go hyper.

This video was recorded for Nico during the party, which Dota being the thing missed when he is not around. Guess he must be missing it too now. No Cloverfield like events will happen after the video. You are safe. Oh and Nico, if you are reading this, I finally found out what NT Zone could mean, it’s NICO THAM Zone. No wonder we always go cc when you are here, and no longer when you are not.

Other memories of Nico and Audrey, especially of Audrey, is during the game of Saboteur. Her high pitch voice just made her have that much of an edge to mind f*** people. Gan’s one is different people, I’m not sure what is he trying to get. While Nico, hmm….

We will be looking forward to see both of you back. Happy touring around Europe. Thaminator Terminator Salvation, coming soon…

Love, comes in many ways.

Parents loving a child or children. A mother holding her newly born baby into her arms knowing that the baby has a long way in her life. Sending the child to school, preparing food, teaching, guiding, taking care and nurturing the child. A dad teaching the child how to play baseball, seeing the child’s first baseball game, helping out with the child’s remote control car. Love of parents, is the most beautiful love in the world.

Friends loving each other, by supporting each other, being there for each other, giving a hug if one needs it, have a shoulder to lean on if necessary. Teaching each other how to solve academic questions, playing sports together which improves team work and communication. Love from friends sometimes depends on the background culture however, as different people perceive different actions as showing love.

Love of a couple, hearts are unite no matter how far the distance, accepting the other party for who they are, knowing that having each other is the best that one could ask for. Spending the rest of the life together, going through hardships and being there for each other all the way makes this love special.

Love is a beautiful thing in life, it’s something which shows so much affection to people around a person. Love creates a sense of respect in humans towards each other. It’s what a world of more than 6 billion people needs.

But what happens when a person does not have the capacity to love a person? Can a person with depression ever fall in love and love a person to the fullest when he/she can’t even love him/herself. Is it possible for a person with depression not be judge even after one shows so much love? Is it possible for a person with depression to obtain acceptance from the community and most importantly the person whom one love so much?

It’s never easy to understand a person with depression, especially when one does not reveal that they are depress. But what if a revelation is made, would it change people’s perception? Would it create a positive look towards one or receive further negative perception? Never easy to deal with people with depression. Rule is to keep yourself healthy before dealing with a person with depression, if you can’t, than you need to take a step back first.

If you Google depression, there’s 70 million results that will appear. Almost 1 person of the world’s population. Is it really possible for a person to get out entirely out of depression after falling into one? If it is not, will non-pychology-course-taken people ever understand?

This is basically one of the longest post in terms of words that I have made in months. Grammar errors? Sentence structure? Well all in all, is it really possibe? Is there really any hope out there for those who need it? It’s not easy….

Probably that is the reason why. Am still wondering till today why I have lost the touch of blogging.

Probably because of the fear of being judge. Unlike my first blog where I expressed what I feel in my heart, without any filtering, which put in a lot of emotions into the posts. The fear of a probably gossip outbreak may be a reason that the enthusiasm is lost.

With a slight addiction to good photography, in conjunction with my upcoming USA trip (that’s right USA), my enthusiasm on blogging seems to spark a little, but I’m not sure for how long because I have exam starting in a few days time. The installation of Photoshop on my computer today put me on a step forward towards blogging again, at least for this moment.

Oh well, we, human, are judgmental, that’s what our brains our developed for, to judge every action that we do in life and find the best ones which the highest valued outcome. Judging, some do it more than others. Probably that is…..

1.27 AM, 12 hours and 33 minutes to go before deductible marks for late submission can be applied. Familiar faces are scattered aroung the computer lab, with many of them pooling resources together to find answers for an assignment which is governed by a lecturer who is able to get 98% in this subject during his university days.

1.30 AM, 12 hours and 30 minutes to go, 3 minutes is needed to generate a paragraph of such short words. This shows how slow is my work rate.

1.31 AM, 12 hours and 29 minutes to go, it’s official that this semester is one of my worse, if not the worst. But that is of course only applicable till now, before entering year 3.

1.32 AM, 12 hours and 28 minutes to go, what happens if this carries on to year 3. Would the investment of a hundred thousand be worth it?

1.33 AM, 12 hours and 27 minutes to go, I have yet to write a title for this blog post, and 6 minutes have been wasted instead of brainstorming on how to edit my assignment.

1.34 AM, 12 hours and 26 minutes to go, 7 minutes have gone. Cluesless…..

When the sky seems gloomy, when bunnies are sheltering during winters, when there’s lightning in a frisbee game, when the card needed to win is deep below the deck or when there is nothing in return after giving so much,

looking back to the past at wonderful memories is some of us do, hoping that things will be better, comforting ourselves in the dark, wishing that light will shine through.

But what happens when one is not capable…..